One of the refrains I hear often these days is think only about today. Don’t think about yesterday, don’t think about tomorrow, just think about doing the next right thing. This is something I’ve been trying to do since walking in the doors.
Problem is that before walking in the door that first time I said, “Yes, I’ll go to this thing,” “yes, I’ll go to that thing,” whatever whatever. And today all those things are still in my calendar. And I’m frantically trying to think of ways to get out of them. I mean I don’t want to not go, but I don’t want to go, but I don’t want to not go, but I don’t want to go (yes, this is a similar refrain to I love you, I hate you, I love you).
The two events coming up are so flipping important, though. So today I’m, reluctantly and with much internal kicking and screaming, still planning on going to the events. The people involved are far too important to not go.
I may be a little more than a little terrified about it for a few weeks, though.