This is something my professors, parents, and many friends know: I suck at homework. I always have. I hate being told what to do. Doesn’t matter if it’s something I know I should do. Doesn’t matter if it’s something I WANT to do. If you’re TELLING me to do it? I won’t do it. This is why doing the assignment my sponsor set in front of me this morning is so remarkable.
It’s textbook I know I should, part of me wants to, but that’s never been enough in the past. Yet here I am doing it. Well, here I am having done it.
This is driving home that maybe this IS something I want to do. That still scares the shit out of me, but if it turns into something I WANT to do, something I’m actively doing, that’s gotta be better than doing by omission, right?