So. Okay. I’m a person who often feels like she’s being beat over the head by music. Not like it’s being shoved down my throat, but like all the music raises all the feelings. This could be any sort of music from Ryan Montbleau’s “Variety” (Have you every wanted to be everything?/Sometimes the dreaming gets so overwhelming) to The Fray’s “How to Save a Life” (And I would have stayed up with you all night/Had I known how to save a life) to a bajillion and a half more songs and artists. The song that’s been hitting me especially hard today is part of the finale to RENT, “No day but today.”Just thinking of those words – let alone the storyline that gets us to this bit – makes me feel more feels than I typically like to be feeling.
“No day but today”
But this is also one of the things I’ve learned so far in the meetings I’ve gone to. “Do the next right thing.” “Start with today.” These are things that have been not “beat” into my head, but repeated…a lot…and that’s what I’m trying to do. The next right thing. Not thinking about tomorrow, just starting with today. There are times thinking about today as a day is too much so I break it down to thinking about this hour. This hour will turn into another hour into another and another and eventually those hours will turn into a day; a week; a month; more.
But I can’t think about that today. For now? I’m doing the next right thing. I’m putting one foot in front of the other. There’s “no day but today” and that’ll eventually be enough to get me to tomorrow and beyond.
So true. Sometimes its comforting to think so basic as … Is there air in my lungs? Is my heart beating, I’m alive today! Then, I think, can I manage a shower today? Shall I eat breakfast? Is there a positive YouTube video to watch? Then, I wonder if I can make it to work. But its literally one thing at a time or I just stay in bed.
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Thank you so much. I so FULLY understand what you’re saying.
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