I’m fairly certain I’ve written about this before, but one of the things stressed in meetings is one day at a time. I’m knocking that down. I’m trying to take things one hour at a time. I’m fighting myself on nigh every level possible. I have to look at not cutting, not drinking, going in to work, staying at work. I have to look at it an hour at a time because anything more than that and my mind gets muddled and overwhelmed. Right now I’m looking at 864 hours sober. Longer than that without cutting.
Life. The hardest damn thing you’ll ever do.