Until you love yourself

I had an important morning this morning. I had several folks remind me they’re here to poke holes in my black shroud so minute beams of light come in to hit me. My sponsor reminded me to let the love in. One of the first things I was taught was to let others love me until I learned to love myself. 

I’m not to a point I love myself yet, but I’m starting to get to a point I believe others love me and starting to get to a point I believe I’ll love myself someday.

I feel light years beyond where I was four months ago. I’m still terrified, I’m still doubtful, but I’m less doubtful and less terrified.