If you know me in any way you know I often have difficulty maintaining a healthy work/life balance. This remains true despite being an hourly employee nowadays. The big difference is that now it’s not unheard of for me to work off the clock to get a job started or done. Or just get the little things I don’t have time to spare to do on the clock.
This continues to affect my mental health. Because now I’m always thinking about the work not getting started or done regardless of where I am. There’s so much I could be doing. So much I should be doing. But instead I find myself worrying about work.
And my worrying about work is a good thing. It means I’m invested in my job. It means I care. But why aren’t I worrying about other things? Why aren’t I doing more to combat the things I need combatting?
I feel like I’m a waste of carbon atoms. There’s so much potential wrapped in my body that I’m not using and I don’t know how to change that. I’ve never known how to change that.
Maybe I shouldn’t want to change it because the minute I do I’m no longer me? And maybe I’m an okay human?
Being human is so complicated.
my inner journeys 