Resentments

As I’ve discussed here in the past my name is Zeph and I’m an alcoholic. I bring that up because one of the healing steps is to name out your resentments. In this step an alcoholic examines the reasons for their resentments and tries to stop using their resentments as a reason to drink. One of those taking a bull by the horn situations.

I bring it up because I’m doing my best to work through the steps to get my feet under me and be as productive a member of my family and world as I have the potential to be. With this in mind I pulled out a notebook to get to work. There was the first list I drew up. Towards the top were specifically this, that, and the other person preventing me from committing suicide.

I bring it up today because today I’m grateful they did. I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am if I’d cut the veins so long ago. I wouldn’t have met the people I’ve met or worked the job I work without surviving my twenties and early thirties.

So thank you to those who’ve managed to keep me around this long. Hopefully I don’t give you reason to resent me or your advocacy for me still being here.