Just for Today

Just shy of a month ago I came out as trans. Since then I’ve been smiling more, real laughing more, contemplating suicide and self harm less.

I don’t know if this is forever, but part of me hopes it is.

My sister asked me how I’m feeling and I responded, “Dare I say it? I’m feeling hopeful and optimistic and, yes, shades of happy. And not a qualified happy just not…have to wear a happy face happy.”

I’m still fighting 39 years of major depression’s conditioning. I’m still fighting depression. But today I feel more ready to fight and win.